Colours for the Blind

Most people would be wondering why i chose such a title. I was in search for the perfect title, i had lots of ideas, came across various options but none had that feel in it, the kind of thing that makes the reader take a deep breath, and after reading they should think about the title and say to themselves ' how true!!'.

There are instances in life when you want to do something but you know you cant. You want to buy your dad's favorite wine for his birthday, but because you dont have a job you cant even think of buying Bisleri for him. What do you do? You may sit all night crying. Or just leave the house before dad wakes up and come back after he sleeps. But does the pain leave you. You know what is happening, but you cant do anything about it. You know what to do, but cannot do it. You want to see colours, but you are blind.

There are instances in life when you are really down and wish that there is no point in living. In such moments all you might want is to have the person whom you love the most, beside you.
After having a bad day at college, like thrown out of the lab, best friend proposes the girl you love, all you want is to go home, lie on your mom's lap and cry. You know that she can ease off the pain, even though tommorrow you'll have to face the same issues. But still, all you want is to be with your mom. But what if you were staying at the hostel. What if mobile phones were not invented. What if you have to ring up your neighbour to call your parents. What if your parents are abroad. You just want to be with your mom, but you cant. You just want to go home, but you cant. You want to see colours, but you are blind.

You have heard about colours all your life. You have been told that the night is black, you have been told that your girl's eyes are black. You have been told that roses are red, you have been told that her lips are red. You have been told that leaves are green, you have been told that her favorite colour is green. You have been told that sky is blue, you have been told that today her bangles are blue. You can imagine her, but you cant see her. You want to see her, but you cant. You want to see colours, but you are blind.

You come across instances in life where you want to say something but you know that you cant. You want to tell her whats going through you mind. You want to let her know that you love her. You want to tell her that you cant live without her. You want to tell her that with her your life would be complete. You want her to know that each time you see her makes your heart light and makes you smile. You want her to know that each time she smiles you live a life through it. But what if she had accepted your best friends proposal. What if she is your best friend, and also your best friend's girl. What if you know that she's never going to be yours. You want her to love you, but you know she wont. You want to be with her for the rest of your life, but you know you cant. You want to tell her how much you love her, but you cant. You want to see colours, but you are blind.

But sometimes i wonder, is it better to be blind than see some of the colours? You fell in love, later to know that you cant get her. Wouldnt it have been better if you had known before hand itself that you wont get her, than this whole thing of falling in love and later coming to know that she is already someone else's and then your heart breaks and all the aftermath. If you had been blind then you wouldnt have seen that colour.

People tell me that life is miserable, due to a million reasons. They'd say 'my life would be perfect when these problems end', but soon after these problems end they make it a point to end up with new ones, and somehow manage to find newer and bigger ones!! Then for a minute i thought about myself, even i do the same thing, everyone does. I always used to wonder when my set of probems would have an end, but never did. I thought about today, i have issues in life that has already taken life out of me. But then, is there a way out of it without facing it? Is there life without problems? If there ever exists a life where there would be no problems or issues and life would always be happy, filled with joy and love, it'd only be the biggest and most common fantasy man has ever had and will be having forever. You have to see the colours of life, and when you do, some colours make you smile while some make you cry. Some make you jump with joy, while some makes you cry in pain. It is a way of life. You have to see these colours. The only way to see colours that make you happy only is to see the colours for the blind. Colours for the blind is just a fantasy. Likewise, being happy all the time is just another fantasy.